Thursday, January 04, 2007

I was thinking and reading my Bible this morning as I waited for the kids to wake up. And I realized that for the past several years, I've been living as if I don't deserve anything. I bought cheap plastic shelves to hold the vhs/dvd collection because I was living in a slum trailer and thought it (and I) didn't deserve any better.

A lot of the motions I've been going through and the things I've been doing have been because I didn't feel I was good enough.

Yesterday morning, Chaz, Breezy, and I went to visit a friend at the flea market/antique shop she works at part time. I found a fabulous shelf thingie in her booth and a beautiful retro table in another booth. I asked her to hold the shelf thingie and talked with the owner about the table. I've no idea how I'll afford it but I'm definitely thinking about it. We've not had a kitchen table in nearly 4 years. Tv trays have been the order of business at our house.

And we are not preparing a house, we are preparing a home.

Just a few thoughts to go with everything else that is running through my mind this morning.

For you did not receive a spirit that makes you a slave again to fear, but you received the Spirit of sonship. And by him we cry, "Abba, Father." Romans 8:15

2 comments:

tracy m said...

You make a good point- so often we live the aecetic life because we feel we don't deserve good things. It's just not so... there is a difference between extravagance and doing something nice for yourself.

I hope you find a way to get the table. Family meals at a table you like is a nice thing to do for your family. Good luck.

Deb said...

Thank you. I'm sure we'll have one soon. :o)